I posted these pictures on facebook.
We got lots of well wishes and statements like "great couple" and "amazing couple." I thought a lot about the perception people can have when they only see the images we present to the public. We are the sainted couple who adopted their orphaned nieces. Not seeing the hurt and tension hovering beneath the surface.
I mostly thought about the couple in those pictures. Young, excited, ready to take on the world with all of its for betters and for worses. We were so happy on that day. It was a great day.
Fast forward 19 years...
The smiles are still there. The love is still there even though it's sometimes hard to find. The for worses have overshadowed the for betters these last few years. We've lost our togetherness in the stressful acts of holding our family together.
Bottom line is this...I still love him with all my heart. He makes me laugh more than anyone I know, and sometimes the best parts of my day are the times I make him laugh. I hold out hope that we eventually turn this corner and focus on the for betters.
Here's to the next next 19 and beyond...