Things I'm writing about that could possible invade or hurt people in our family according to another commenter
--mental health issues (ADHD, anxiety, depression, medication) of the girls
--my sister's sexuality
Summary of comments is that I'm not anonymous enough (even though nobody knows about my blog except for 3 close friends who I tell this stuff in person to anyway). It would be easy to figure out the who, what, and where of our family from our blog and this could be used to damage my family by others OR if the kids find out in the future they will feel I've invaded their privacy.
Things I'm struggling with on this:
--I don't know how to write without being totally honest and telling details of the story.
--As a family, we are very open about the girls mental health issues, especially M's ADHD and anxiety.
--My sister is gay. Everyone knows this and it's not something we hide.
--There is a lot to our family story that I don't share and that is not included in this blog.
--Despite the commenter's best intentions, I now feel horrible and guilty and that this blog, which has given me a great outlet and support system, has been selfish and despite helping me, it's something that inadvertently I have created to potentially hurt my family by invading their privacy.
I'm at a loss with this one. It all comes down to people finding out that I write a blog and then tracking it down. It's easy to do this if you are a reader and can use information from the blog to form search criteria in google, but not that easy if you don't know what you're looking for. If they google about the accident using the names "Jeanne and Mike" they can find their last name but no where in the press is my last name or the names of the girls. I honestly think it is a bit far fetched someone would use information found from my blog to hurt my family.
If in the future the kids or K find my blog and read it, I'm not sure they'd be all that upset. They lived all of this. I think they could be upset that I shared stuff they may feel is private. But again, I wasn't posting this on a billboard or all over facebook to be read by people they interact with on a daily basis or even distant acquaintances. My blog isn't read by very many people.
I feel awful and now incredibly naive and guilty. Another mark on my "I suck at this" chalkboard. I want to write. I need to write. I just don't know whether or not I'm going to be able to continue.